slightly lower than a sunset but higher than a raincloud

i think I'm sad....shouldn't a person know for sure something like that? Why don't i know for sure?
if i had just a few thousand dollars i would run away somewhere far far across the world and i would maybe relearn how to be me...the me i lost so many years ago.
i think i might be a bit dead inside sometimes....memories can be beautiful or they can be deadly....mine try to kill me in my sleep. i think this life is going to eat me alive and I'm not doing anything to stop it.
~glory