Hello blog, it is getting longer and longer between our visits. I haven't forgotten you though ((hug))
I always think of you on nights that can't sleep........like now.
Delima: Here I sit in Houston, i'm supposed to be happy, I thought I would be. I was so sure in fact I gave up on my dreams that were finally happening and my house that I loved. I'm working on it, its just that so soon after being here I feel very second place and very lied to and kept in the dark right now. i'm not used to feeling this way, I had been so careful up till now on who I chose, And I find myself confused and trying not to bolt out the door. So far though i'm still here. Which means I love him, but how long can these games last? I love that noone reads this because it feels really good to say it. I just feel like slowly little pieces of me are dying and dropping off.....I haven't been to church in months! That's not me, I love church. I'm lost right now and I don't know how to reel me back in. I don't know this person I am right now. what makes it all so horrible is I think I may have done this for something I imagined to be stronger than it really is....but once again love locks me in place and I am frozen here scared to move or it all might shatter.
Probably too dramatic you are thinking, well I agree.that is why I only type it here. Sometimes I wish I were made out of stone, the hard cold kind that can make it through anything.
~glory
