In the dark you tell me of a flower, That only blooms in the violet hour

Friday, February 18, 2011

slightly lower than a sunset but higher than a raincloud

i think I'm sad....shouldn't a person know for sure something like that? Why don't i know for sure?
if i had just a few thousand dollars i would run away somewhere far far across the world and i would maybe relearn how to be me...the me i lost so many years ago.
i think i might be a bit dead inside sometimes....memories can be beautiful or they can be deadly....mine try to kill me in my sleep. i think this life is going to eat me alive and I'm not doing anything to stop it.
~glory


Tuesday, January 25, 2011

When Eeyore breys piglet pretends to listen

Pencil or pen? its a good question...also it says a lot about the person who chooses....i think anyway. For instance, a pen COULD mean that they are more sure of themselves, less worried about mistakes...maybe even too bold; yet a Pencil could say they are meticulous possibly obsessed with little details, standoffish etc. I always love giving someone the choice when the moment presents itself just so i can can see what they pick. Its like an updated version of the greatest lazy sport ever = people watching.
I hate planes today. I hate how they keep taking people I love away, and I hate how they keep leaving somewhere without me. I don't know why but lately I am so antsy I can hardly hold still. I have to though, for at least one more year....sounds a bit similar to forever though to me....i guess i am petrified that given enough time here i might just settle down and stay, never leaving, and so never living. At least I have taken the first steps though right?
Normally this is the part where I would call someone for a pep talk and tell a couple badly timed half hearted cheesy out of place jokes but my phone is dead again and all the way across the parking lot buried in the pocket of a semi fuzzy vampira like jacket....and that is just too much work for me...so hi (now is the time you may picture a tiny little socially awkward raincloud hovering ever so slightly above this page waiting for my permission to drip a few drops on your head....don't worry i wont let it. that computer of yours looks expensive).
Don't get me wrong. I am most certainly not depressed. This is just my occasional Eeyore put out to pasture. Feed him hay and he will go away. ;)
I wish I had the brains to come up with a new game. Not just any game, something brilliant like clue...or candyland....simple yet freakin amazing!! yeah.....but so far i have "player one rolls the die" <------ta dah! i know you're jealous right!
and on that note (C#)....i have to go cram my tiny little brain full of test answers for tomorrow morning that i will only have to recycle out later through my ears, if necessary, to make room for my brand new book i just bought. One that I plan on reading after school *fingers crossed*.
i think that's about it...the nothing i had to say has been said and the something i wanted to mumble has been silenced for tonight. Sweet dreams everyone.
~glory

Monday, January 17, 2011

Why are cats the only creatures said to have nine lives? Why not regenerating turtles or reoccurring anteaters...that could be exciting. Plus think about how lovely and ant-free the world would be if it were true.
Its late again. I haven't really been sleeping lately...still getting up at obscene hours, just not going to sleep to prepare for when the hand set Satan alarm goes off joyfully blaring in my ear. If I were to ever direct a movie where the whole world goes through a catastrophic event and everything but the ocean got destroyed, alarms would be the first things to explode. I think it would make for a very touching intro...tear jerking perhaps.
Could a person ever be so tired and confused with herself and others and everything in-between? Sometimes I wish I could just reach into the mind of another being with an unfamiliar soul and just see what they think and feel and maybe discover that I'm not so different...I feel different, but maybe that's just because I'm the only thoughts I listen to.
I was looking through wallpapers last night around three and found this------------------------------------------>


isn't it lovely? it made me smile much much wider than usual.
Laughter is so the cure for everything :)

Sunday, January 16, 2011

insomnia

insomnia <-----------two eyes that refuse to shut.





stress: school starts back up soon,



I'm not ready yet.


dieting --------------> i want food.