As Far As I'm Concerned

Today was my little nieces first day of school *silent crowd roar* I am so proud, and ecstatic, and happy, and old (but the other three feeling balance out this feeling and make it obsolete). If I were a rooster, all my feathers would be poofed up with pride and I would still be crowing obnoxiously....just saying.

WHy is it bananas taste completely different and a hundred times better chopped up? I dont really care, just thinking about it.

Finally in the swing of things, in theory anyway. I am starting to catch on and somehow manage all my classes without any mild panic attacks. My social life was buried somewhere in the midst of it however and now the only people I ever have time to talk to are at school or related to me. All other time is spend buried in some book or hoarse with my ears drowning in Cd's. But, once again, I am happy with my decision and really excited about the future, so bring it on.

My phone is gone, and it is funny because I spent so many years avoiding it and now that I lost it (by giving it a free car roof ride about town) I feel hermited without it. At least before, I could randomly text someone to at least assure them that even though I seem to have disappeared off the planet that I still care....what now? Well looks like it is time to bring out the tin cans and string wires. <-----still think its freakin awesome that those things work :)

Tomorrow I also start work (small man waves giant flag about in celebration) which means I get to stay at my new house comfortably. I wish there was some way to show up for work somewhere where your only job would be to sit on top of a large mountain sized marshmallow until closing time, eating small bits off it from time to time. I wonder what experience requirements would be needed for that.

and as if that wasnt enough, to those still hanging on to my pointless chatter as if there were something deep here today.....I do put one thing out there, I ask for your prayers for my nephew.
Thanks,
Glory

one more sleepless night and people will start to confuse me with KISS

I can't sleep...not a really big surprise there, but tonight I blame it on the giant black footprints walking along my wall (well really they are tacked up there, but they do do a really great "walking" impression, sometimes, around four in the morning...you have to just REALLY want to see it).
Also I have also realised that ever since I have moved (about a month-ish now) I have not once slept in my bed, nope always in the big red chair. Maybe this is the reason for my dark circles, who knows. Ehhh whatever the case put down another chalk slash for mr moon because once again he has the upper glowing hand(its cause the stars cheat....just saying).

Ok I'm gone.

nairB ruoY oT sihT oD naC krowemoH fO slivE ehT tuO hctaW

Do I look like someone with a super brain? Is "secretly wonderman" stamped on my forehead with invisible ink that only super wicked teachers/overlorders can read? Too much homework! I love every class and can't part with a single one, but what started as two classes has somehow stretched out to nine.....I can't say no to anything that involves singing and now I am overwhelmed and horse yet still way too stubborn and determined to admit it anywhere else but here. I will get through this but I can't promise that I won't turn into a house hermit this summer who only hobbles to the door for pizza and to check the mail for coupons for pizza delivery because notes; drawing notes and scales on my walls, kinda like that jim carry movie where he was obsessed with that number and drew it all over the place (number 23?), only with MY sketchings you could sing along to crazy chants (something I think the film seriously lacked. Maybe I should get fifty cats to so they could literally eat my homework and I would never have to lie. All in all, I think, a pretty good semester plan.
I wish I spoke Japanese.

AH HA!! There is no match for my whiles :D After an hour of sad attempts of breaking back into my account (other than my sad little pre set up three line texts added by phone) I finally broke back in, I can at LAST use all the words in my mind rather than a small summary. * and the whole world rejoiced for at last the sun had returned to warm the earth* <--------- slight exaggeration possible.........maybe, but again...only slight.
So new updates : my BABY brother is getting married ( this does not mean I am old, he is the one who is aging, not me). i am superbly happy for him though...i like it when my family is happy. Also I am beginning to suspect that my nephew will be skipping all the joys of crawling and will move straight to working in a mortuary.....hes friendly like that. Our biggest goal this month is to try and get one smile out of him....one. We may be shooting for the moon.
My mothers birthday is tomorrow and after careful deliberation I have decided to decorate my house like christmas and wrap her presents in Santa paper and candy cane cookies with Noel playing in the background. *evil Lear* the family wanted a surprise party.....perhaps this will do.
School has begun...i have started back this time going for music major, hoping to be the next prima dona by next week....or maybe I'll be satisfied to just do a scary rendition of Mary Poppins playing the role of very sooty but somehow still happy chimney sweep.
on that note i am off to wal mart to buy lots and lots and lots junk food on the pretense of sending away the brother in law with a nice overflowing driver survivor kit but we all know I'm just going to clam half of it .... but only because i dont want him to eat toooo many unhealthy sweets I'm super nice that way.....evil cackle *snort* never shop when youre not hungry, it takes away all the fun.
~glory signing out

In a largely unstable world, could it be the earth beneath my toe-socked toes may finally start shifting in my direction? Can so many doors open all at once?

family = irreplaceable ; friends = sturdy ; pets = lovable ; school = insufferable ; hobbies = enjoyable ; God = faithful ; dreams = possible ; life = well :)<3

My Stomach is tied up in a painful ball of knots tonight. I am angry with myself and frustrated. I feel like I just threw away pure flawless gold. I'm so broken

Life has a way of catching you in the gut sometimes.....usually while its dangling something pretty in front of you as a distraction.

Why is it when the blackhole is chasing you and the only hope of escape is driving so far away that your own tears can't find you, on that day you're out of gas

Aha! Sloth my old friend.....we meet again

Sitting here listening to the hideous sound of bullfrogs croaking in the muddy pond below and thinking about nothing in the world except for something. Hi moon

I'm happy. At this very moment life is wonderful, perfect even, and I am afraid to breath.

Yay I can blog mobil =D

Glory has a phone named after a fruit...don't be jealous

Well gosh I really don't know what to say, I certainly don't have anything amazing on my mind, if anything at all. It's just one of those days today, you know, the ones where you play hooky from work but don't have really much planned except vegetabling on a ginormous big red chair while trying to go back and finish old crosswords while at the same time texting random pointless comments to friends with the sound of The Big Bang Theory (a marvelous melt your mind kind of show) playing in the background messing up all train of any real thought.
I want pizza but I can't have it because I am dieting again mainly because my body refuses to stop trying to stretch out of my skin :(. In a house as cold as mine you would think it would just want to stay there too. Pictures, verging on crappy, of the frigid igloo I call home---------->












I like it, it's quiet cuteish, and I actually have time to write. Though yesterday I did have one of the top scares of my life when I brilliantly I might add manages to click the wrong button and delete all contents off my computer...including my beloved addiction I call my book. I am just lucky to have a sister who is married to a brilliant nerd who somehow magically brought it back, but before he did I think my heart actually may have stopped beating for a few moments. Something I would never recommend trying at home.....and yes I know you are thinking well why didn't you have a back up...that is actually what I was trying to do when I erased it....go figure. I do now have a printed out copy this time around. I know...your thinking about my brilliance...its ok you may bask in it.... :)
anyway, so lastly but not leastly by any means I have done something else I never thought I would do...I got a cell phone....I KNOW! * for those of you who have no idea about me and phones which would pretty much be everyone of you glancing as they pass by, I am not one to have a cell phone because then people could call me and find me on days when I don't wish to be found...but nevertheless here I am with my little red blackberry. Well anyway I am kinda proud of me today.
ok I think that's about it. time to leave the building and spend some time with friends rather than with the two new cats I have inherited through a friend who needed a favor ((growls a little under breath))) <------whole other story and my fingers are way too tired for it. I leave you now.

Appreciate The Blob Days You Acne Cover Pubesant Teens!!

I like Fridays. not the restaurant...though it and its potato skins are divine, but the day itself. Course I find I only really appreciate it when I am working because when I am not working I can never remember which day it is so the love of that particular day soon transfers over to nothing more than hypothetical adoration.
Did I mention I am working again...I don't believe I did but either way I am going to rant about it so if you have heard it be prepared or just cover your eyes. Or do neither I've changed my mind......but know this: If the devil had his way we would all be filing claims in Hell.

never look for something you don't want to find

I think....I think...... I just might be an idiot.....*shudders at one more thing she has found*

Today I baked the same cake three times and have discovered I cannot light a color candle

First let me start by saying I love birthdays, not really my own, I hate all the added attention, but I love others birthdays and giving out the attention. Also my family seems to have this undying tradition of having non-surprise surprise parties. What I mean by that is that everyone gets a surprise party so the only real thing you could do in my family to throw things frighteningly off would be to not surprise the birthday person....that would just be crazy.
Well now that I have you speaking/ reading about birthdays: Today, or rather yesterday (since it's already three hours into today) was my nieces' third Birthday. Now if anyone knows how to enjoy a good birthday party its a three year old and she made the most of it making her wish before she blew out the candles, opened presents veeeerrrrrryyyyy slowly, screamed happily about everything she got declaring that she "loved it more than anything she had" before moving to the next gift and declaring it again, cutting the cake for us....into beautiful patterns.....while sporting her new purple wig and sparkle slippers.
It was a good night, finished by a family sit down were we all watched the great box office hit Tinkerbell (I teared up at the end) and played with birthday ferrrets in clown outfits that were busy popping balloons with their teeth and ignoring us.

The Cat

New house, new goals, and unfortunately new twelve year old cat.....well same one really but my parents generously left it to me in a boomerang fashion since I was the one who gave her to them two years ago. My evil plan has failed miserably. So now Bubbles and I are trying to relearn how to co exist which also means I am back on the allergy pills (it's either that or pink poofy eyes and a nose that sounds like an elephant taking a bath)*sigh* and so I take them.
side note* cats are the number one deadliest killer in the animal category because everyone has them and they cause blood poisoning and other horrors every day AND they are a large cause for schizophrenia.....comforting. Within the next year I could either die of cat scratch fever or start talking to walls, but only painted walls....I could never be seen with a white wall.
Ironic That I used to adore cats so much that the only tattoo I have is of one of them but now I am a avid dog person and avoid cats. My favorite breed is the Great Dane. I think they a gorgeous and very majestic and I miss my two ladies Ember and Raven very much (they are with my parents for eight months until I leave town since now I have downsized to an upstairs apartment).
That is all for now, I would stay and ramble but I am leaving the building and carrying my computer and typing while driving might be hard. ;)
~glory

rambling into the deaf darkness

4:00 in the morning and stuck in a half awake half asleep inspired yet blank stage. I have been doing this a lot lately, sleeping in and staying up all night, which is probably not the most healthy but since my body is the boss I let it be.
I am completely packed, snack packs and all, and surrounded by towers of square 3-D stacked cardboard....could be a good look for this house.... Now all that is really left is waiting on the U-Haul which doesn't get here till Friday (Unfortunate since now I cannot remember which box has all the clean clothes).
I love moving today, though tomorrow I might hate it again....I go through phases; it's a good chance to downsize on overly collected junk and a good way to start over. Except that my way of cleaning out junk is throwing away a pencil that is too far gone to revive and calling it a day. I am far to sentimental when it comes to pointless stuff. I still have my floppy disks from junior high even though my PC cannot play them and nearly half a garden with all the pebbles and peddles I have collected over years of happy moments .Pitiful really...
Ever wonder why it is that sometimes life can seem so great, everything is perfect then it all falls apart and turns horrid only to fix itself and bring back out the sun before you even have a chance to react to the first situation. If life is a jump rope I have the reflexes of an eighty year old when I play....I'm always just a little behind and tripping over the rope.
OK, I'm going to try again to sleep....won't work probably...but this screen is too bright my eyes are too tired and i always have a good back up plan sitting in the book shelf if I fail.

New Year Wishes

Another year to start over.
My new years resolution: Not to have a new years resolution...which technically making it my resolution is also breaking it so there goes the stress of trying to keep it.
I hope everyone has a great new start and doesn't just pick up where they left off and continue on with the same monotonous daily role that they have been hammering out for years. It takes all the fun out of life and makes it like your almost not living...a kind of walking dead.
Don't get trapped in that same old tradition. Its not healthy.
I am just finishing off another brilliant chapter in the imaginary world that I have created, which is fast becoming my obsession, and watching my grandpa dose off after finding the rum bottle left over from New Years to his liking *snickers* and thinking how wonderful it would be if boxes could pack themselves.
Yes boxes. The whole family is playing musical houses this next month, my parents my sisters family, my grandpa, and me.....I would add my two brothers to the list but I don't know if dorms really count *thinks for a moment on that*
Whatever the case no one will be where they first begun but almost every house is going to still be occupied and then there will be two new ones brought in...I personally am excited because I am moving to a cheaper place with more quiet and less pets.
DOn't get me wrong I love pets...just not paying for their food or wrestling with them during bath time. I will be leaving with just my two baby great danes Ember and Raven; no cats, no birds, no wolves.
The one thing I will miss: My niece and sister. They will still be in the same town...for now but even in the same town and not in the next room is going to hurt. :( But I suppose it is healthy to separate. Since I have been with them I have made their life my life and have really not gone out until now to try to find my own. I just wish I could take them with me you know...like a souvenir key chain that's always near by (unless you're me and loose the keys often).
So since I am moving to a new house I am now also in the process of finding a new job... waitressing I'm afraid....which happens to be the one profession I loath above all else I have ever done, but the money is good even if the customers are Satan and I suppose I could trade my soul for the cash if for only six months out of this year. I was awfully trim back then, mainly because the sight of food made me ill and all the running away from tables kept me going, but still there you have it: I work in restaurants and I won't have to go to the gym...fair trade I guess.
ANYway may God watch over all who pass by whether atheist, agnostic, christian (active or not), catholic, protestant, Islam, jew, on so on, and keep you safe with his loving arms whether you believe in him or not and at the risk of repeating myself, have a Happy New Year ;)